Moses 7:1-45 (Fatherhood)

Fatherhood is Hard. Alli and I were talking last night about how I am so upset about Blake's development. I feel like he should just automatically be able to do things after I try 50 times to teach him. When I read chapter 7 this morning I was able to reflect on how Heavenly Father must feel when he has tried to teach me things and I still disobey or fail to understand the principle. Heavenly Father is so patient with us. In verses 28-32 Enoch hears the Lord explain how He weeps for the residue of the Earth. We are the "workmanship of His hands", and he has given us our agency so that we may choose for ourselves.

I need to remember that Heavenly Father has given Blake his agency. All I can do is continue to teach him and love him and hope that he chooses to learn. It is sure hard sometimes though to remember to do this.

Moses 6

In verse 31 God chooses Enoch to give his words to the people. Enoch is not confident in his ability and uncomfortable with the call. This shows that Heavenly Father will use whom ever he feels is best to accomplish his work. I think that we see this in our church today. The bishop of a ward is not always the most successful person in the ward, or even the person with the most schooling. When we follow the commandments Heavenly Father he will go before us and he will fill our mouths with the words he wants the people to hear.

Also in this chapter the plan of salvation is explained beautifully.

Moses 5 (Conversion)

In verse 10 Adam says "blessed be the name of God, for because of my transgression my eyes are opened, and in this life I have joy." I kind of feel like I have had a similar experience in my life. I have had my share of troubles and challenges in my life. I have done some things that my Heavenly Father is probably not proud of. Because of these troubles and transgressions though I have come to know my Heavenly Father better. I remember in college when I was going through my formal conversion experience how powerful the spirit was. I really felt the redemptive power of the atonement in my life.

To those who are struggling with things, I can honestly say that as you call upon the Lord for forgiveness you will feel a burning inside you. You will feel that you are doing the right things. You will be able to let go of the guilt that you harbor inside of you. It is a very peaceful feeling.

In my life right now, because I have felt that power and spirit in the past, I am craving that same conversion feeling. I know that as I read my scriptures and make correct choices and call upon the Lord for forgiveness. I will feel that very same peace that I felt when I was first truly converted.

Trust in the Lord...It is sometimes hard to do. But I know that as I do I will once again feel the love of my Savior and my Heavenly Father. They will always be there for all of us, don't hesitate to let them in.